I need to vent....

[Warlord]

Fitz Wrote:I have a pretty big high school crush at the moment. I have a real big crush on the personal trainer/receptionist at my gym. It's weird, because I remember her in there last August/September for a few weeks doing work experience. At the time, she didn't hit me straight away, I thought she had a kind of unique look to her, and she kind of came across as a loud talker, but something about her.
She disappeared and then started working there from about early December once she probably finished her course and over time, she has just grown on me heaps and now she is always on my mind.
She has such a beautiful face IMO, very clean looking face, not much make up, nice smile and eyes. Her skin looks soft and clean, like no pimples or rough skin. Just a nice soft looking face. She looks a little bit like a goth, but not an intense one that is really out there. Long black hair, with fair coloured skin.
At the start, I just figured it will just be someone I look forward to seeing and that would be it, but it's getting harder, I feel like I should try something.

I also keep fucking with my head. I felt I have had a lot of promising signs of interest from her as well. We talk often, and she always used to stop me on the way out and start a convo with me, asking me what I am doing on the weekend on a Friday, and then always asking me what I got up to on the weekend when I see her on the Monday.
She has touched me a few times I have been there, as I walked past her she touched me on my elbow as she said good morning, and another time I was resting between sets, and she put her hand on my shoulder momentarily and said "working hard?" or something along those lines.
Just before new years, she asked me what I was getting up to on New Years and told her I was heading up towards Rye (the beach), and she was like "meeee toooo". Then she asked me where abouts I was staying, and at the time I didn't know, as I was going to a mates house and didn't know the finer details. A few days later, I went in and she asked me again "do you know where you're staying yet?". I was like, I don't, lol. I will probably get the address when I head up there.
Then last week, I was saying how I had a 21st, and she started saying stuff like "there should be a lot of hot chicks there for you?". She made this comment on two occasions during the week. I don't know, could have been just an innocent comment, but I also thought that it could have been a disguised statement to find out my status.....as I sometimes do stuff like that.
She also made me feel really good and very masculine on Wednesday, I was chewing gum after that. I was deadlifting and lifting the heaviest I have ever got to (160kgs). Even one of the gym gays came up to me, and said "I was watching you, my god, I don't know how you do that", lol. But she was walking past, and then stopped at me and then started counting all my weights and then was like "wow, 160kgs....is that a new PB?", then she said good work and gave me a high 5. Not going to lie, it made me feel pretty macho, I haven't had that feeling before.
Then this morning we are just talking as I am training, and she starts asking me questions about my program, and then started asking me where I got my stronglift program from. I then told her she looks leaner (it was an honest compliment, I wasn't just saying it, lol) and she looks good. She then started telling me that I am looking better and big improvement, and I am looking very good around the shoulders now and that she can see it there a lot now.

Like I said, I keep fucking with my head. I think I have promising signs, but then I see her around and she is a friendly person and talks with other people, and then I tell myself maybe I am reading too much into it, and she is just being friendly and is like that with everyone.

She is also a dancer, and was telling me this morning she used to be a full time dancer and she has another good quality, she works with kids and on weekends she teaches dancing to young children.

I know I have a big crush because the other night when I was trying to rub one out over one the the several milfs at the gym that always give me a lot of attention, but I found it that all I was doing was shifting my focus and thinking about my crush and I was getting no where, lol.

Dude she wants your tube steak, just give it to her, Jesus Christ! You waiting for an invitation? Crush her guts and get it over with for crying out loud.