I need to vent....

[Fitz]

the ollie reed fan club Wrote:

Fitz Wrote:Smoking most definitely does have effects on you, but it really depends on the personality or the mindset you are in when smoking.

I was smoking a lot when I wasn't in the right frame of mind. Over years, you get more depressed, I isolated myself and become less and less social.
I finally got my shit together and in a good place now. I still smoke, but it's much different now when I am high on life.

I think yes and no, but on the wrong person, smoking can have a dramatic effect. The scary part about it is, you don't realise it has effected you until a few years later.

Correct. My sister used to smoke regularly, she even had a few plants in her back garden. She didn't drink either because she is an alcoholic so thought weed was the better option

But over time she said she suffered real bad mood swings and her short term memory is fucked.

Now she doesn't do either one but she says the damage has been done and some of it is irreversible (mainly the short term memory part.)

Now I have only smoked weed I think twice in my life but as most of you know I used to punish the nose candy pretty darned hard. For the first couple of years that was fine but then I started to suffer really bad come-downs which could last up to 3 days. Semi-panic attacks and depression so I pretty much had to knock that on the head.

Now I just drink but I find even if I do that too much I can suffer a case of the 'booze blues'which can last a couple of days so I have had to scale that back as well.

Why is it that as I get older all of my fun stuff has to be taken away?

P.S Fitzy how's it going with that chick at gym? That was turning into a cool story.

Yep, definitely true. I have never suffered from memory loss (I'm very sharp with memory), though I would just feel like a dumb cunt the next morning at times, lol. But I have had no long term effects or anything.
I was just depressed and had some other issues, and over about 5 years, smoking made it worse. Things are good now though.

Haha, I haven't forgotten about the story yet. I just haven't had the chance to say anything yet, and thought I would leave it until I did. Don't want to drag the story out while nothing is happening yet, lol. But I was annoyed, I was planning to ask on Monday, but as I was leaving, she was with a colleague and the timing was off.
Though last week when I got to the gym and she walked past me, she said "here is my favourite boy", then yesterday during my session, she approached me as we hadn't seen each other yet, and was like "here's my boy".
She also notices little things like when I am later than usual, or things we have talked about a week or so ago, where most people would probably forget, as it was just small trivial and chit chat type of stuff.

Who knows, maybe it means nothing. But it can't be a bad thing, lol.