I need to vent....

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lloyd mayflower Wrote:Fuck sake man. No shes still not back. She's prob at here mothers but since I have no phone as yet I can't really do much. If she thinks me not texting her as much as I would have cos I was having to borrow phones is break-up-worthy then i'm probably better off. She thinks I was being deliberately selfish. She doesn't seem to rembmer that I am never anything but nice to her. Iv never called her a name, raised my voice, or walked out on her. Fuckin women are brutal man. Brutal.

Watch you don't end up on a downward spiral mate, I know if I end up finishing with her this week, i'll be looking for someone to tell me the same.

Sounds pretty unreasonable to me. Then again womens minds work different to mens. How soon they forget that you treat them well. As I said to my ex did I ever hit you? Emotionally blackmail you? Stop you seeing your friends & family? Fuck no I was the best thing she ever fucking had in her life.


My downward spiral happened a few weeks ago when I did the below.

Quote:I decided I needed to relax so I had a few cones & watched the footy. My team won & I was smoking like a chimney. I decided that I needed to get on the opies & get fucked up.

Now I don't know exactly what I did but I ended up having a shitload of codiene & then taking Valium as well as smoking weed. I enjoyed the game of AFL I taped & was quite happy & noddy on the couch reflecting on the disaster zone my life has become. I do remember looking at my watch & it was about 1.05am & deciding to have a cigarette before retiring.

I was outside having a ciggy & went to go back inside when I started getting really woozy & felt like I was going to pass out. I know you cannot OD on codiene but I was concerned that I did not remember how Valium I took as well & mixing those two is a bad idea. Anyways I took two steps & went to go in the door & felt like I was going to die for real. I remember grabbing the door handle as I was falling & caught my little finger around the handle.

I came to & found my legs inside the apartment with my head & body on the balcony & my arm twisted with my finger still wrapped around the handle. I managed to untangle myself but I was feeling even worse than before & my finger was killing me. It was lucky that I caught my finger as it stopped me hitting my head on the tiles because I do remember the thump across my shoulders as I hit the deck.

I somehow got to my elbows & knees as I could not get up & stand. I crawled to the bedroom & by this stage I was worried I was going to die but I made it to the bed & crawled on there. I had to focus & get my breathing rate up so I looked at the digital clock which said 1.38am. I had lost at least 20 minutes when I was down & I still don't recall what happened three days later. I managed to bring myself down to a level where I was confident I was not going to die & then I looked at my finger. It was bent at a funny angle & quite swollen. I thought I had broken it but I could move it so I was alright.

I ended up passing out soon after & waking up the next day like nothing had happened.

In short if you do split don't mix multiple respiratory depressing agents or at least not in the insane amounts I did! As a side note I was at this girls place having dinner when she pointed out my smeared faceprint on her door. I must have mushed my face into the door as I collapsed & you could see my eye, ear, nose, lips & chin clear as day on the door. I think we laughed about it for a hour but she made me promise not to be so fucking silly again & I have not touched opies since.

Good luck mate but if she is breaking your balls over this then it sounds like a sign.