I need to vent....

[SmartyBeardo]

STEVENSKI Wrote:Looks like I had a trademark Stevens benzo blackout at my Christmas party. I took a couple of valium & then smashed beers all night. There are multiple blank periods & I don't know what is the truth & what is a lie. I may or may not have done the following after the official function ended.

Projectile vomited in public (I seriously doubt that as my hangover was not too bad)
Incoherent drug induced amnesic babbling to a manager about "lets cook up some crack & hit bellringers til lunchtime" (would not surprise me at all)
Getting a handjob at the bar (I hope so)
Told a person I don't like that they need a last cigarette & blindfold (very likely)
Being all over & fingering a married colleague in a taxi (I really hope not as she is a lovely person but married)

No one will give me a straight answer & the person I trust to tell the truth was as fucked up as I was & has even less memory of what we did. We were all drunk but I have not had any complaints made against me so I should be sweet.

I wish that my people could cut loose a bit at my Christmas parties. Not quite that much of a bit but more of a bit. Of course it takes a certain level of sobriety to do what we do, and you don't come down off of that easily; especially in the company of SmartyBeardo.